I thought you were breaking the cycle...
I thought you were different...
I thought until I realized
I am just a man.
I thought and then I let live
And as I did
My blood bled red
And my bones felt brittle
I shed my youth
Invincibility faded
Jaded,
I Am.
Mystery again
Cosmic in my conscience
Knowing the cosmic is the comic
Vapor. Dust.Mist. Smoke
So I walk lighter
I think less, unless
It is true, honest, just, pure, lovely
And of good report.
I just deported toxic thoughts back West
Begin to invest in the earth of myself
And Oh I've been digging, golden shovel!!
Overturned and uprooted
Disputed topics between who I am
...Still Becoming
Amalgamating the double me
Free to not understand
Free to not steer what's beyond my strength
No fighting phantoms of other men's insecurities I live.
We thought we needed permission
So I live.
We thought that death was normal
So I live
All of our thoughts programmed
Yet, I live.
Striking in
Living paradox
Hoping, hoping, hoping and yet still
I persist
In bliss of existence
In hope conjoined to despair
On tightropes of fear and confidence
Re-calibrating common sense for callings in the distance
So I'm distant
Until I return to find my feet under me
Grasping again
For love's...reset.