Mesmerized Once More

2019

And it all came crashing down 

At the speed of sound 

My house of cards like glass 

Clashed against realities bare floor 

I implore again, 

What is love? 

Only in destruction do I see 

What I've constructed from expectations 

Facing the rubble of broken dreams 

It seems I'm too ideal 

Lucid I spill wonder, again. 

Why is my normal so normative? 

Am I constantly trying to cram infinity in finite space?

Is this just displaced existence? 

Or am I a mammoth among men? 

What if I'm just dust in the wind on a galaxy far removed? 

But I know it's less about me 

And it's more about love 

And what it will make of me. 

Mistakenly... 

Or so graciously I've been here before 

And I fear I'll be here again 

For no fruit taste sweet unless it's labored through the dirt

Exposed to the light, pain brings life

All seeds break in the dark. 

So, 

Maybe we need this conflict to spark alight our forested love

Burn away the overgrown and dead, 

Cultivate a newness, 

So let it burn…? 

Let her turn her back as I react 

The frustrated pragmatist once again 

The illogical grin because I don't get her 

She's from Venus

I'm from Mars 

We're stars apart 

But I've made her my moon 

I swoon over that crooked smile 

That wild sense of humor 

Her oversized eyes 

In resolve I lie next to her 

Staring into infinite space behind the iris 

The pulse of eyelids like butterfly wings 

And I'm mesmerized again 

A soft kiss and I forget what made me

Illogical